'Man Contempt'

A poem by Tesía Samara / Ben Brownlee, suicide at 15

I had a life that lost control

Spun out, directed, and ridiculed by males

It was my spirit they broke and stole

For any happiness I felt or freedom it entails

They bothered me and spat in my hopes

They buried my dreams

They led me to pills, rafters and ropes

They lowered each and every one of my esteems

They couldn't bear to see me smile

They shoved me in the dirt

They made me crawl an extra mile

They kept constant in all their forms of hurt

They have pushed me to one easy emotion

It all leads to one plain notion

A desire for each and every last one –

To burn and cry out on the sun

For they drove themselves to this fate

This is for everything male I hate.

– Tesía Samara/Ben Brownlee

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